Zoe. Zoe. Zoe…  A name and a girl I will never forget.   I knew her well through photos, and I only met her a handful of times, but she’s left me with a life time of thoughts.

I met Zoe, aged 3 in 2009. I offered to photograph her while she was in the midst of Chemotherapy. I knew at the time she had a good chance of survival and so this gave me the courage to meet this little precious poppit.  Funny really… me needing the courage?…. she was the one that needed every single ounce she could muster….

Someone posted something on ol’ Facebook a while back….  ”All we are when we die is photos”….. and when Zoe left this world
I came back to that saying over and over in my head, and I now profoundly disagree….   Photos are important yes. I often look at my images of Zoe so I can honour her memory and also be grateful of my blessed life….. but we leave so much more than photos…..

During Chemo, 2009……





One year later…. this photo makes me smile. Zoe thought I was kind of a wally, and
I love that we connected a little while I was
nearly puking from motion sickness on the round a bout…….

She leaves me with warm fuzzies………….






2012……… the Cancer is back….. But Zoe is more beautiful than ever……..



She leaves me with gratitude that I am a mum….. she makes me a better mum….



She leaves a Daddy who is a better person because of her……….



She leaves us with the feeling that magic still can happen despite being a dark place……….




She leaves an amazing Mum who continues to carry on and make the world around her a better place….




She has small friends that learned too early that life can be too short…..




She leaves more than a photograph….. she shows her soulful eyes that carry so much wisdom that
will be passed on so long as we remember……. and take the time to remember…..




She leaves empowerment…  for everyone to do better in helping one another……
to give to charities like the Child Cancer Foundation…..



Not just a photo……….. I see light enveloping her, and the crosses on the window reminding
us she is in a good place with her Pop…..



…..she leaves a loving Grandma and a loving Nana…. & uncles, and aunties….



She leaves us all thinking……….



Thinking some more………….

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She leave us celebrating and appreciating…… she leaves adults looking to children to be inspired……

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Take some time to go and look at:

The Angel Zoe Kindness Project

There is only one good thing that can come from the loss of a child, or anyone…. That is, in their name we
carry on…. But we have to carry on and be BETTER HUMANS….   That’s all Zoe would have asked for….
A sweet empathetic, caring young lady…..

Today Zo, you could have been seven years old. Happy Birthday lil’ Honey… xoxoxoxx
I bet you’re getting the best hugs from your Pop today………

Nykie. xxx

PS. Cancer f**ken sucks really really badly!


  1. nola speirs
    April 3, 2013

    thankyou nykie for your loving kindness over the last three years your photos are just beautiful and much appreciated by all the family. to you and yours arohanui xoxoxoxo

    • admin
      April 3, 2013

      Thank you Nola. xx

  2. Bruce Lim
    April 3, 2013

    Powerful photos Nyk.

  3. stephanie Beddis
    April 3, 2013

    That is so beautiful to see all those wonderful photos, thankyou so much xxxx Steph

  4. stu wilson
    April 4, 2013

    amazing…. im sitting at work crying

  5. Wendy
    April 4, 2013

    Thank you for sharing such beautiful pictures and words. You have captured Zoe perfectly xxxxx

  6. Kiri
    April 4, 2013

    Lovely words Nykie, and of course they accompany some beautiful images.

  7. Bianca
    April 4, 2013

    I just cried my face out! Lovely lovely words and beautiful photographs of an amazing wee warrior <3

  8. Kim
    April 4, 2013

    Beautiful, Nykie. I agree, people leave behind so much more. They leave behind some of who they are – the impression they make on everyone they touch.

  9. amanda
    April 4, 2013

    Beautiful Nykie

  10. bridgetpirie
    April 4, 2013

    Wow, that was awesome Nyk. Dear little Zoe.

  11. Sandra Mccollum
    April 4, 2013

    Thankyou for sharing . It is a very beautiful and sad all at once. Sorri for your lost. Photos are the most important thing anyone could have. They speak a thousand words. Love

  12. Lissy
    April 5, 2013

    Hi I lost my boy Oscar to a medulloblastoma (brain cancer) in 2011. He was 7 as well.So shocking all my hair fell out. My heart goes out to you.xxoo

  13. Kim
    August 16, 2013

    I get tearful every time I see these photos. Tears for not only the unfairness of cancer, but tears because the love you captured around Zoe is really beautiful. xx

  14. jo
    August 27, 2013

    Wow. Such beautiful work celebrating such a beautiful girl. Nykie you did more than take photos…


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